in the belly of the fish

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Charms in The Kite Runner

The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini
371 pages

I read this last year, but today as I organized my bookshelf I saw that I had post-its sticking out of it, so I decided to post them. Beautiful and powerful, yet there are some things in this book that upset me as they may enforce false opinions about my religion.

"I finally had what I'd wanted all those years. Except now that I had it, I felt as empty as this unkempt pool I was dangling my legs into."

"It may be unfair, but what happens in a few days, sometimes even a single day, can change the course of a whole lifetime."

"I envied the mullah now. I envied his faith and certainty."

"You're gutless. It's how you were made. And that's not such a bad thing because your saving grace is that you've never lied to yourself about it. Not about that. Nothing wrong with cowardice as long as it comes with prudence. But when a coward stops remembering who he is...God help him."

"I see now that Baba was wrong, there is a God, there always had been.  I see Him here, in the eyes of the people in this corridor of desperation. [...] There is a God, there has to be, and now I will pray, I will pray that He forgive that I have neglected Him all of these years, forgive that I have betrayed, lied, and sinned with impunity only to turn to Him now in my hour of need, I pray that He is as merciful, benevolent, and gracious as His book says He is. [...] I will think of Him every day from this day on if He only grants me this one wish: My hands are stained with Hassan's blood; I pray God doesn't let them get stained with the blood of his boy too.  I hear a whimpering and realize it is mine, my lips are salty with the tears trickling down my face. I feel the eyes of everyone in this corridor on me and still I bow to the west. I pray. I pray that my sins have not caught up with me the way I'd always feared they would."

"I lay awake, an insomniac once more. And alone with demons of my own."

"But I'll take it. With open arms. Because when spring comes, it melts the snow one flake at a time, and maybe I just witnessed the first flake melting."